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At first, I wasn’t planning to write about this. But the spark I was searching for the one that would shape my thoughts never arrived. For me, the spark is everything. It’s that one word, the soul of my writing, the catchphrase that ties it all together. And yet, no matter how much I searched, it stayed out of reach. But for this piece? I think I’ve found it.

As I sat here, pouring time, effort, and frustration into finding just one word, a thought struck me: some people find their “the one” so easily.Effortlessly, as if they’ve stumbled upon some secret guide that shows them to what they’re looking for. Maybe it’s a privilege reserved for the lucky few, the ones who’ve cracked the code to life. And then there’s me struggling, not just for the word, but for the clarity that comes with it.

But the real question isn’t whether I’ll find my “the one.” It’s how long I should keep searching. Or should I stop altogether?

क्योंकि ये इंतज़ार, मुझे पागल कर देगा शायद।
~Majnu




(Ps its not as good as my other works, Apologies)

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