To beg

Just another word plain, overlooked. I searched for its meaning, found definitions stacked like bricks to ask humbly, to plead, to seek alms. But none of them captured the weight it carries in the spaces where words are swallowed and hearts go unheard.

If begging is merely asking peacefully, then tell me, don’t lovers beg without realizing? If this is what it means, then perhaps I, too, am a beggar. I have begged not on streets, but in silences. For presence, for kindness, for hands that do not slip away. I have begged for the well-being of those who never saw the storm in my own eyes. I have asked without speaking, lost without leaving, given without receiving.

Life has a quiet way of taking, hollowing, emptying. And now, though I have shelter, though I have all that should make me whole, something remains missing something unseen, yet essential.

So I wonder, is a beggar only the one with an empty bowl? Or can they also be the one with an empty soul?

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